I apologize for shit that isn’t my fault.
And when it is I take an even bigger fall.
I just can’t control my fucking emotions.
So how am I supposed to deal with this raging ocean.
Of crazy feelings in my brain.
Everyday I’m just going more insane.
Too fucking different, but afraid to be the same.
I guess I’m stuck playing this mental game.

Even though I know I’ll never win.
I’ll still try my best to keep up my chin.
When my mind’s always down.
I’ll keep trying to get rid of that frown.
Because I know everyone can see it.
I just don’t want anyone else to have to feel it.

No one really knows how I feel.
When I’m joking about killing myself.
They don’t know that’s all real.
I can’t fucking do that though.
Take the cowards way out.
Just because some shit isn’t going my way.
Because some fucking girl won’t even look me in the face.

Even though I told her I love her.
I guess that was a dumb idea.

But fuck it.
I guess I can always find another.
One I can be with forever.
Fuck, who am I kidding?
Girls feelings change for me more than the weather.
And right now, this love feels like a storm.
I just hope the rain passes.
And the air gets warm.